To be struggling with lockdown now

[littleblackdress04]

I think I am getting a bit depressed by being locked down- I have been feeling really negative, questioning life, questioning who my friends are, who cares about me etc. I think normally I am so busy with work & kids & school run etc that I don’t have time to think about all of this stuff and now I am thinking about it a lot. Haven’t felt like doing loads of online parties & group chats etc.

I also had a rubbish lockdown birthday that no one remembered and it’s just all perpetuated my feelings of being alone etc. DP is still working ‘outside’ so I am at home with the kids trying to juggle my job with home schooling etc which is really challenging to be honest.

Aibu to find it hard? Anyone else feeling like this? I just feel very ‘alone’

Haven't any advice as such but you are definitely not alone. I hit a bit of a wall this weekend and realised how I actually miss the routine of the mundane. And as much as I love my family I don't think it's doing any of us any good not being able to see friends and other family and just go about our individual business. It was nice for a while and we all enjoyed the peace but it'll be nice to return to normal.

You're not alone. I'm on maternity leave and I wanted to use this time to see friends and family etc. Instead I have four walls and a shit of a DP who I now actively avoid in the evenings.

I think it is very easy to slip into a worry that no one cares but I think it is just that the days roll into one and I know my day can go in a flash without having children and wfh to contend with. Babies are pretty lockdown friendly, adults aren't. We're not built to stay inside and avoid people at all costs. I hope you start feeling better soon

I felt really down over Easter as we were meant to be on holiday with family, instead of being stuck at home and only getting out for the same walk once a day every day.

I’m feeling better again now, but I think we all get down days when everything just gets on top of you. Try and enjoy the sunshine, make sure you get some fresh air every day, treat yourself to some nice food, and remind yourself that things will get better. We are some weeks behind the rest of Europe, but you can see the first signs of lockdowns easing there so we will get there too.

I understand and am with you. Been on furlough since April with a 5 and 1 year old. I am going crazy just dealing with house work everyday. DP and I haven't been getting on well and he doesn't normally come back down after putting the eldest to bed, he watches stuff on his phone. So I literally have no adult company but just two kids who just want their dad.
I am so low. I don't believe anyone cares about me and feel like walking out the front door straight in front of a bus.

Don't put too much stress on yourself OP. Must be so hard trying to home school but I read somewhere that you don't need to do that much... An hour a day??

Also happy belated birthday 💐💐💐🎉🎂!!!!