To think my self esteem issues are making me unlikeable?

[inlawsimnotsure]

I have a lot of time on my hands to think at the moment and I have had a realisation that I have serious self esteem issues and that manifest themselves to make me a not very nice person.

I'm jealous, bitter, insecure - I pretend to be nice but I'm not. And it stems from just not liking myself very much.

I'm embarrassed I don't have a great job or much money or a good education (I could have done better if I'd worked harder) I compare misery to everyone and struggle to be happy for others. I'm never happy with what I've got and I feel so much less than everyone else.

It's not a happy way to live - has anyone overcome this and built their self esteem up from scratch without therapy?

I'd be so so grateful for any tips - I want to be happier and nicer and not risk loosing this things I do have.

Also try listening to Paul mckennas I can change your life hypnosese on you tube - they really helped me to let go of a negative view of myself and embrace happiness. Also read anything you can about self compassion, Buddhism etc good luck.

I was noticing I felt like that a lot jealous bitter insecure and the more I focused on not wanting to feel those things the more I did so I allowed myself to feel them and write them down.
Once I wrote them down even the meanest thoughts I cd let go of them I also started a gratitude list and now I don’t really have mean negative thoughts and if I do I just write them down.
Take it easy on yourself we are all made up of good and bad it’s how you behave that matters focus on the good thoughts and the good actions be kind to yourself

Here’s the link. Self esteem can be changed very quickly if you change the way you think about yourself and your actions (I was lucky to get that vs I worked hard to get that. I can’t do this vs I can’t do this yet but I’m learning)

www.thriveprogramme.org/thriving-at-home/