I suffer really bad anxiety to the point I have regular attacks and think that everything I love will die. I'm on medication and seeing a counsellor (or was before lockdown).
One of my biggest triggers is my dog. He has got me through some really horrible stuff and because of my anxiety I just focus so much of it on him and think he's going to die all the time.
Tonight he's woken me up at about 2am and has been vomitting since. It is clear and watery but he's also drinking a lot of water so I'm not sure if it's just water.
I'm convinced he's going to die I am panicking so much and I don't know what to do. He's back in bed with me now and seems to be asleep but he's thrown up 3 times now and I can't stop my head racing. I have to keep checking he's breathing and my heart is going ten million miles an hour.
I'm so scared I'm going to wake up and he'll be dead. I'm going absolutely crazy, this is just a huge trigger for me I feel like this is it, this is the thing I've been waiting to happen. I'm sat in bed shaking and crying and I feel so fucking stupid.