AIBU to think I'll never be fluent or am I just thick as shit.
It's fair to say I struggle with retaining info. I don't know how much this is just the fact I have no brain space with the mental load of work and kids and life. I work in a role that is quite science based but despite being excellent at my job with great results, I'd be hard pushed to remember the facts/figures/research papers etc if put on the spot for example. I just cannot retain this stuff. It's like my brain filters what I need in life and sacks off the rest instantly. I'd love to be one of those super brainy remembers everything off top of their head types.
2 weeks ago I started using Duolingo for Spanish.
But It seems to me more like a remembrance test! I can match the words, guess what the sentence is with some familiarity of the words that are in front of me etc.. but without the english/spanish translated words below to prompt I don't think I could and when I'm not on the app I can barely remember anything off the top of my head except the very bare basics.
I'm spending about 15-30m per day on it. I appreciate it's early days but it's reminding me of the time I was 8 and learnt to the recorder from watching and memorizing the finger coordination.... 7 months later I was screwed at a recital as I hadn't admitted I couldn't read music and the teacher was furious!
This just isn't going to happen for me is it? Am I just stupid?