Finding lockdown with family hard

[Sapphiresunrise]

My parents are in their mid-50s and I have a teenage brother. I have been staying with them since before the lockdown happened but usually live alone.
My workplace is closed for the forseeable future and I have no work to do at home, so at a bit of a loose end.
My parents get on a lot better with my brother than they do I and it's really being highlighted.
It's not that I don't get on with them as such, i'm just a lot quieter and they seem to find my brother a lot funnier and more interesting, he's very confident and outgoing and always making them laugh.
My Dad and brother have a very close bond and I guess being here has made me sad that I don't have that bond with my family. My brother doesn't seem to like me much, and doesn't really speak to me unless I speak to him.
He doesn't clean any mess after himself, he will make a sandwich and leave all the ingredients out, leave bowls on the floor, towels in the bath etc. But i'm not bothering to say anything because I know I'll be painted as the bitch.
My Mum is a key worker and my Dad is WFH, i'm trying my best to help them out by keeping the house clean, doing the shopping etc.
The house is very small and cramped, my brother has online lessons all day which I know he has to do of course, but the noise comes right into my room so it's hard to get any quiet really.
I just feel like an outsider and not working is getting to me.
I've had one argument with my family in the last few weeks, and i'm just trying to stay out of their way and keep busy. Hearing them all laughing and joking and having debates with my brother just makes me feel lonely and I feel like going.
I want to go back to my own flat but I know we aren't meant to move households.
I am fully aware that people are in a much worse situation than me right now, i'm lucky to be safe. It's just hard when youre so used to independence and suddenly you have a whole new life.
Anyone else in the same boat /suggestions ? Thank you

I think you’re allowed to go back home. It’s not like you’ll be moving in with someone else. Don’t make any stops in between and you’ll be fine

I think I will do that.. I'm better in my own company..

If you live alone, you can go home.

I'm happy to visit my family on the weekends but I just feel like being alone now, so I think I shall go home tomorrow..

You are allowed to go home. I'd just go.

You don't have to see your family every weekend. They are young!
Absence makes the heart grow fonder.

There’s zero risk to anyone in going back to your own flat. In fact you’d be safer.

I know what you mean.
I’m sure you’ll be less stressed and much more happy in your own surroundings.
I’d get a jigsaw, a puzzle book, make sure I’ve got lots of tv/movies to watch and most definitely plenty of snacks.
Make sure you got ingredients in for you favourite meals so make sure you’re stocked up.
Have fun

I only live 20 minutes down the road and I do tend to stay with them on a weekend as they like me visiting, but it's just highlighting the sort of relationship I have with them and the wider situation that extroverts are generally more favoured by others.

Thanks :)

Well if you move back home you won’t be seeing them for a while so do consider that... but if you’re naturally introverted then being on your own might be favourable. ( good luck buying a jigsaw though... they’re sold out along with bread makers and freezers. )

You won’t be able to stay on weekends if you return home. I’d personally go home

Go home, definitely.

I’d go home but bear in mind you won’t be able to visit at weekends

That's the thing, if I go I don't know when the next time will be, you really can't win in this current situation can you 🙄
Luckily i'm not more of a jigsaw person 😂more of a drawing person..
I'm going to go tomorrow though.

I voted YABU purely because you have an option. Im currently ttying to juggle wfh full time with taking care of a 4 year old as a single parent and I'm so exhausted from it. I know its not one upmanship but if you have the option to change it i dont know why you wouldn't.

Go home and tell them that you're sticking to the guidelines and won't be visiting until it's all over. Will you be OK being on your own?

Yeah, I will be alright.. Hopefully this will be over sooner rather than later but who knows 🙄

Is a temporary job an option? To alleviate boredom if needed?

I've been applying but no luck so far sadly, i'll keep trying !

My bag is packed and i'm going tomorrow morning, doubt it will make much difference to them tbh.

I think that generally people think that extroverts are easier to deal with, they say what they think and they also seem to get more credit for things for some reason.. In the long run though people who can actually get work done are favoured. I have two nearly grown up children, one is an extrovert and one is an introvert. I love them both just as much, but I do sometimes find it easier with the introvert. Because I am more like that myself. My husband finds it easy with the extrovert, he is one himself. Just wanted to say that you sound like a lovely person, and I hope you at least got some appreciation for helping out without announcing it to your family!

Thank you :)
I think my Mum appreciated it but don't think my Dad does. The thing is if I point out that my brother is 18 and more than capable of cleaning up after himself then my Dad will rush to his defense. So i've just stopped bothering..

I often do feel like extroverts are favoured, whether that's at work, in relationships or elsewhere sadly.. But it's nice to hear another side of it :)

@Sapphiresunrise if you are healthy and at a loose end, have you considered volunteering for GoodSams? It would get you out of the house, seeing other people (who would, I'm sure, appreciate your efforts). In your shoes I would definitely move back to my own place.