I wish I could sometimes let feelings wash off me like water off a duck's back. Don't seem to be able to though.
Yes, I get it, really I do - we are in a crisis situation. I don't sit there doing nothing. However as a single parent with a teen and a very non-understanding ex partner thankfully a few hundred miles away - I just feel incredibly lonely at times.
Before the lockdown - school was going great, and I was finally feeling as if I might be able to start re-building activities for myself, move forward in life etc.
Now, I feel as if I'm back to square one. I'm sure there will be the elemnent of people on here who wil take the 'pull yourself together' approach. It doesn't help me though.
Normally, without the lockdown, during those times when teenager is grumpy, blames me for all the ills in the world, doesn't tidy up etc - I can just shrug it off, wait for them to go off to school and know that when they return their mood will have changed, right now though, I'm finding it really difficult to take...
Got a message from the school Friday to say we were doing brilliantly with home schooling. Battled with money this week, don't get me wrong I know I'm better off than some people out there - just wanted to get this off my chest.
Listened to the radio - and the call outs to thank members of society. Noone seems to be thanking parents or single parents, seems at times as if I've had to give up any attempt at an autonomous life from one day to the next, no one seems to see US as key workers...? Yet if we don't hold it down from one day to the next, we are the first people who are cricicised, it seems.
all best
motherindenial