To just lay out how I am feeling

[Justneedaprivaterant]

I'm a long term member but have namechanged. Just wanted to get it off my chest really.
It's mothers day and I'm alone. My own mother passed away a couple of years ago which I'm still struggling with. I'm to scared to see my own children. I am an a&e nurse and worked 16 hours yesterday and pretty much all week and I can't even begin to tell you what I've seen and what I've heard. Not in terms of policies but from people begging to be allowed to see loved ones and hearing colleagues give bad news over the phone etc.
I'm also bipolar and can't get access to my consultant for my medication. I'm sat here crying by myself. I just want to give my 3 kids a big hug but I cant put them at risk. My anxiety is awful and my other symptoms are creeping up but I cant get my meds. I'm so scared exhausted and overwhelmed. I have friends still going out and about and even now are still telling me I'm over reacting. Just wish I could drag them to work a shift with me so they could see what's actually happening.
I'm sorry for the pity party. Just needed to get it all out. I hope everyone's staying as safe as they can

Gosh thank you for the work you are doing. I am so sorry about the situation you find yourself in and saying prayers for you and your family.

It’s a well deserved pity party! Friend is a nurse and has said how horrific it’s been, both physically and emotionally. Can you email the consultant to get a repeat prescription? Eat well and stay strong.

First of all, mothers day is hard. We lost my mum almost 3 years ago now and I just blank out/ignore the fb posts and stuff when I'm scrolling. I am a mum so if DD does something for me that's up to her.

Your friends sound like dicks. I have a doctor friend and our group weren't taking it particularly seriously either until she had to isolate and told us what was happening. We have all been isolating/social distancing as appropriate now for over a week. Tell your friends that when they have medical training and first hand experience then they get to tell you how to react.

Thirdly, do you have a crisis team/help number to call or some way to arrange your meds? I know that everywhere is overwhelmed at the moment (my friend got discharged from her CPN because they are all required in general wards etc) but can 111 or your gp prescribe and have them delivered?

You are doing the right thing by keeping your kids safe. If need be, mute your friends chat or ask if they could keep hearsay/conspiracy theories off the main group (assuming you're all on WhatsApp or something) as you have to deal with it all day at work and you need to be able to relax when chatting with them.

Thank you for all you are doing.

You are amazing. Thank you for everything you're doing and everything you've had to sacrifice.
I can't even begin to imagine what you're having to deal with. And I'm so sorry that there's so many fucking idiots that are carrying on as normal and not social distancing/isolating and making this so much harder for you and the NHS.

Happy Mother's Day to you, sending you hugs x

Just to give a and a a socially distant virtual hug to you OP and say thank you for all you and all NHS staff are doing, you genuinely are heroes. I hope in some small way the virtual support you will receive here on MN helps give you a little lift in such difficult times. It angers me seeing people still being so complacent about this. Take care and keep strong OP Xx

Thank you both. I didn't want to across as me me me because I know I'm not the only one struggling right now and I know there's people in much worse situations.
I did email and have had no response as yet. This is an emergency appointment even though I've had to wait 4 weeks for it. My current prescription isn't working. It's a fairly new diagnoses so we're still ironing out the kinks in terms of meds. And my medication prescription relies on blood test results. I just want some advice from them really but I cant get through to any of the team but of course I understand there's more pressing matters at play right now

Sorry by the time I posted more lovely mumsnetters had commented. Thank you all so much. And to all non nhs workers reading this I'd just like to show my gratitude to you aswell. Teachers, retail workers, delivery drivers etc. We are the people keeping society going. Not the hedgefunders bankers etc. So thank you to all of you aswell x

Lithium?

@theresnobslikehowb yes that's the most recent we're trying

I'm due my 3 month checks in 2 weeks but my upcoming appointment was an emergency due to an episode a few weeks ago x

Thank you for being you, NHS workers are angels and I’m sorry you feel so bad today

Sending you strength and thanks. Hope you soon feel better x

No wonder you're feeling overwhelmed, it sounds really bloody hard. Your children will understand about today, and know that you are not seeing them out of love, have you had a chance to video call or phone them? Is your consultant contactable by phone? I know everything is being reprioritised, but that's terrible you are being left without your meds, and I am hoping there's a way for you to get that sorted, it's ridiculous. As for the rest :( I can't even begin to imagine what it has been like physically and mentally for you this week so I am not going to say that I understand as I don't, but I empathise as much as I can. People still out and about are so selfish, I reckon we are heading for lockdown soon as people can't be trusted.

Sorry to hear you’re struggling, but a huge thank you for everything you’re doing. Vent away, and don’t feel bad about it.

It’s not a pity party. You and your colleagues are dealing with the most horrendous things right now, even without taking into account the normal personal problems that we all have, and you are doing so with a dedication that I’m in awe of. If you need to vent, then you bloody vent away because we would be utterly fucked without you.

Thank you 💐

Oh, and when they’re old enough to understand exactly what you did, your DC are going to be so incredibly proud of you.

I think you're AMAZING. I've been feeling sorry for myself and crying off and on and I am actually very lucky. I have a great dh who still has his job, 2 dc who are well motivated and should be OK with home education, a home with plenty of room so we all get our own space and a garden to get outside. I have no reason to be having a pity party yet I am. Please be assured we so appreciate everything you are doing in this horrendous time

You are very brave. Thank you.

Is there something fluffy or cushiony you could hug. Warmth like one of those neck thingies with beans in that you heat up, might be good. Really recommend lavender. Dab a bit ( you can use the pure oil) on your wrist and sniff when needed, really works.

Hugs.

Thank you for everything you’re doing and sacrificing!!! Xxx

Who ate the YABU people?

Yanbu, OP. YANBU at all. Hope you get your support soon

*are not ate

I cannot begin to imagine how hard it must be. Thank you so much for all you are doing. Xxx