To be really depressed

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So I have had a shit week/2 weeks. I My long time partner (4 years) dumped me, I moved back in with my parents, I dislocated my shoulder badly and had to be put under to relocate it, Coronavirus happened, and the cartilage between my ribs and sternum has been crushed after the relocation which is causing chest pain. I have to be in a sling for 2 weeks, can’t move my shoulder Independently for 3 weeks and my chest pain won’t go for 3 weeks. My mum has said I need to stop acting like a child and I can’t look after myself which really hurt given the circumstances and now won’t talk to me. I just feel so alone, am I in the wrong?

*chets pain will go on for 3 weeks

Also I have diagnosed depression and extreme anxiety

I’m so sorry life has dealt you a shit hand recently. What a horrible thing for your mum to say to you.... it’s not you OP

Thank you splitsunrise, I just feel so alone rn. I don’t want to do something stupid but I’m scared and so depressed

Do you have any support in real life OP?

Sounds like you’ve had a tough few weeks

Could your mum be stressed with the coronavirus etc and hence being a bit mean? Not that it’s an excuse

I have friends but I pushed them away during my relationship. I’m trying to reconnect but I don’t want them to think I’m reconnecting so I can just dump all my baggage on them. My mum thinks I don’t respect her, I have been moody lately but mainly because I’m in so much pain.

Are you getting any ongoing medical support for your anxiety and depression?

Well she is right in a way - you can't look after yourself or you wouldn't have moved straight back in with your parents. Did your mum want you to move back in with them or did you just assume it was ok?

No, I was offered a residential in London for mental health for a week but due to corona I can’t do it now. I take antidepressants but they don’t really help

Mum asked me to move back, she didn’t want me to go in the first place. I was still with my ex when I moved back as I couldn’t afford rent anymore. Since moving back I got two jobs one full time in term time and one in holidays.

Everyone is stressed at the moment with the current situation, and it's probably difficult for your mum having to share the house again unexpectedly with you, plus you being poorly and depressed, and possibly not very appreciative. Do try to get yourself some proper help for your depression so you can get back on your feet as soon as possible.

Oh that's so annoying about the residential. I hope you feel better soon. Sorry about your break up and shoulder. The shit things always do happen at once.

It wasn’t unexpected for me to move back in, as she wanted me to and kept a bedroom for me but I see what you mean. I am trying and have tried to get my depression sorted for over 5 years but it’s difficult

@Gemma2019 thank you, they do don’t they

Can you see your GP again for help with your antidepressants if your current ones aren’t working? They could change dosage or the type of medication..

I’ve had depression (it comes and goes), I know it’s not something you can just get over and it’s a constant battle..

Do reach out to your friends, if they are true friends they will be there for you

yanbu for feeling unhappy. That is a rain of crap I'm sure you didn't deserve.
Try to pamper yourself in small ways if you can.