I don’t think I am really but I’m needing a bit of a pep talk.
I haven’t been happy in my job for a long time. It’s a good job on paper but it’s just not for me any more. They are short staffed and insanely busy, to the point where we are working many hours outside our normal hours just to stay afloat (the nature of the work is stressful without this being the case). There are elements of the job that I find awful because they simply aren’t strengths of mine eg public speaking. I don’t need to do it often but whenever I do the stress really knocks me for six and it takes me a while to recover.
I think essentially I don’t like the way my life is just now. I also have two small children who of course are my top priority but my job doesn’t really lend itself well to parenting of small children. It is one of those jobs that really becomes your whole life.
However. I like the company. I like the team. If I leave they will be shocked and in real trouble staff-wise. I can see that.
This morning I’ve had a request to attend an interview for a fantastic new job. I really fancy it but the act of actually resigning...I just don’t know if I can do it. I know I’m jumping the gun I might not get it but I have quite a lot of guilt about potentially leaving (if it’s not this job it’ll be another job I guess).
DH thinks i have given them enough and that I need to do what’s right for me. I think he’s probably right.