My parents divorced when I was a teenager. Both got remarried and after a pretty rocky few year I managed to form good relationships with both.
I am now 38yo and my dad died very suddenly in January. In 24 hours my life was broken. I am managing to cope with life but still very fragile. Family occasions are one of the areas I am dreading as the memories are all going to be raw and I will be thinking of the empty space where my dad should be.
Ever since we had dd who will be 11yo we have spent Xmas with my mum/step dad and in laws alongside visiting my dad and step mum. Although it meant travelling around spending time with everyone was very important to me.
Today my mum has announced that she’s going on a cruise this Xmas as she doesn’t want to go in the summer because of the virus. I feel so angry that she’s doing this - it’s going to be so difficult and I feel like she’s abandoning me. I don’t even think she’s considered how I may feel about this.
I know I am very sensitive to everything so aware I may be over-reacting.