I have name changed because this could be identifying. In November I was mugged in central London the attacker told me he had a knife and told me to hand over my phone (of course I did). I used a bystander’s phone to call the police and they were absolutely lovely and amazing. We logged onto find my iPhone and found the location of my phone and low and behold the attacker was walking out of a tube station and they had my phone in a sock. I had to identify him from the police car. Anyway, they had to take a statement from me and took my phone away as evidence. I was given it back 2 weeks later.
After the incident, I was extremely shaken up as I had been struggling at work recently and already felt very very low and this made it 10x worse. This impacted me monumentally and my GP diagnosed me with depression and PTSD and I have been on antidepressants since.
I had been sent a few emails about sending for a charging decision etc. but nothing or any significance. Bearing in mind I hadn’t let the police know about my diagnoses. Last week I was given a call to say I would have to go to a police station to formally ID them - I agreed to this. Last night, I was feeling extremely worried about it as I had only just managed to begin to put this behind me and get his face out of my mind. My route to the station to ID them would mean going past where it happened and where I last saw them. It just felt like too much and I wasn’t ready for it. I contacted victim support who was great and they gave me advice on how to move forward and we agreed to send an email.
I got a response from the police officer after sending an email last night about how I was feeling and it has just made me feel like sh**e. It was along the lines of it needs to be done so we can apply for extended bail conditions - if they aren’t ID’d this is unlikely.
I just feel like I have messed up the investigation, that all of this will have been for nothing. Just feel like utter sh*t and just need to hear some other thoughts.