Can someone help me calm the fuck down?

[SingleSidedShoulderShrug]

I've been living with my parents for the last 3 weeks about 4 hours away from home, working on my mental health and H and I have had some marital issues. However I'm currently about to see him for the first time in nearly a month and I'm absolutely shitting it. What is wrong with me? Why am I so nervous? I feel like a silly little school girl, all nervous and butterflies. I keep clock watching, I'm going to cock this up if I don't stop being a dick!

...and breathe....

You will be fine.

No wonder you are nervous. That's totally natural. Bet he is too.

Do a single sided shoulder shrug and go do this.

Be honest and be true to yourself. That's all.

Hey - no advice but didn't want you sitting on your own!

Have you been speaking/texting one another?

Perhaps its good nerves?

I don't know whether to meet him at the pub or home. It feels weird being back here.

Pub? A busy one that will let you get a bit lost in noise at first?

Maybe a cafe - no temptation to down a double before he arrives!

You are not being a dick. Anyone would be nervous. Take baby steps and be kind to yourself

I’d be a bit giddy if I was in the same situation to be honest. Try to relax, sit comfortably and don’t clench your hands. Smile!

Not your safe space but not a pub either- somewhere where you can't get anxiously tipsy but still neutral ground

'I'm going to cock this up if I don't stop being a dick!'

I know you meant this jokingly but if part of you is thinking this, you are putting a lot of pressure on yourself (internal thoughts and all that)

And he will be just as nervous, I bet

Hope it goes well. It's normal to feel how you feel x

Being nervous isn’t being a dick! If you weren’t nervous that would be a bit of a sign.

I hope it goes how you want. I'm sure he's feeling the same. Good luck!

I'd go from meeting in a pub.

Bless you, you sound like you've had some well needed space and a bit anxious about the events to come. Relax, be you. You know him well and he knows you well, have a cuppa or go for a walk before you meet. You'll be fine.

Good luck xx

Best wishes!
I hope he makes a huge effort, and has been working on his own issues.

It's good you're nervous. It means you still care.

Hoping you have a lovely time, OP.

Good luck and hope it works out for you both.x

Ah bless you, I hope everything goes well for you both OP.

P.s. I read your username and I had to do it

Grab a glass of wine and arrive in plenty of time

My friend went through this...she left for three weeks because of issues and she said it felt weird to be back....but it's your home...and that will wear off.x

Not your home, thats your safe place. Cafe, pub something like that and good luck. He be feeling the same x

Hopefully you’ve both made progress and can enjoy seeing him again

It reads like people think you are excitedly going on a date. Were the marital difficulties because he was the dick?

Good luck with it OP, normal to feel nervous in these sorts of situations. I hope it goes well for you x