Half renovated house, 15 month old, 5 day job in 4 days

[paintedfences]

Is there anyone else in the same boat? I'm so tired, and sad. I feel like I'm crap at everything, I'm behind that my brain has melted

It's such a hard age. You're working full time. It will get better.

Argh. what I was trying to say was that I am completely overwhelmed and I hate my life at the moment. My house is a tip, I'm shattered, we have no bloody money and that laptop cover pictured is a reminder that I haven't done the work I need to do this weekend yet, because I'm always playing catch-up.

I'm scared they'll take my one day with DS away and make me go full time if I push back too much, so almost every evening I work more after dinner.

None of my friends get it, they all work 3 days maximum and not in the kind of client service-y, deadline-y work I do, so they seem to be a bit when I'm a stressed mess, or maybe I'm imagining it.

We've got very little money as though on paper we should be okay it all goes on childcare or the bloody house. No one seems to understand why it's taking so long either (because we are doing it ourselves!! Because we are out of money!) there are tools everywhere, the roof has blown off the shed so operation 'get the fucking tools out of my house dh' has been put back another two weeks.

Also, my sweet natured, adorable baby has suddenly turned into a toddler, who when tired will have 25+ mini tantrums a day about, oh, not being allowed to eat the remote control/cat food/touch the box of screws.

Please tell me I am not the only one feeling wrung out by general life.

Ignore - off to bed - tomorrow is another day.

My sympathies. You (rightfully ) sound stressed and overwhelmed and feel there is no way out.
We recently completed huge works in the house, had no kitchen for a long time. I have a 20 month old and a 5 year old. I work full time. Some days I would cry with exhaustion.
It will get easier once the work is finished, it will get so much easier when your toddler gets a bit bigger. Hang in there with work too. I have really learnt to work smart. I'm a primary school teacher. I make lists of what needs to be done and only do the essential stuff. I work early in the morning at the weekend so I can have the day guilt free.
Hang in there, this too shall pass.

You are not alone. I too am living in a building site working full time day and night
shifts with 3 kids, one with ASD who hates drilling and change. For cleaning I recommend a plastic snow shovel (£6 from Halfords), scoop stuff into any old box and deal with in the morning. Out of sight out of mind is also a good option, one employed regularly by my 10 and 8 year old who think that shoving the mess under their bed means that they have tidied their bedroom! I feel like a pancake that has been flipped and ended up on the floor covered in fluff. Have some and 🍫 and everything will look better at least until the morning.