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Have you ever felt like you could seriously just run away?

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FuckedItNow · 17/02/2020 11:47

Just had my 11th miscarriage confirmed today.

Has anyone ever felt they could seriously just run away from everything? I want to leave my job, my house, my husband, his kids.

I don't know how to carry on and feel like it would just be better for me to go.

I don't want to be around his kids anymore, I don't want to play happy families. I just want to leave and let them get on with it.

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MilesJuppIsMyBitch · 17/02/2020 11:51

Thanks So sorry for your loss

MilesJuppIsMyBitch · 17/02/2020 11:52

When I've felt like that, it's because I've been spiralling down into depression. It's a horrible, trapped, drowning feeling.

garbagegirl · 17/02/2020 11:54

It sounds like you might need a break and in the circumstances that would be perfectly ok, I am so sorry for your loss OP, have you spoken to a counsellor at all? this is lot to carry on your own x

CakeandCustard28 · 17/02/2020 11:54

Yeah. I nearly did when I lost my triplets, but my partner helped me get through it slowly but surely. Is your husband supporting you? Sorry for your loss. Flowers

CakeandCustard28 · 17/02/2020 11:55

Yeah. I nearly did when I lost my triplets, but my partner helped me get through it slowly but surely. Depression is a horrible void. Is your husband supporting you? Sorry for your loss. Flowers

ThisIsBigMoon · 17/02/2020 11:55

I am sorry for your losses. You must feel quite broken by it all.

I have felt this way twice and both times it was a warning of quite intense depression around the corner. I would suggest getting some support ASAP.

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FuckedItNow · 17/02/2020 11:57

He does support me but I illogically resent him right now for already having the one thing I want. He's a good husband too. But I don't want to see him being a parent it makes me feel worse. Which is why I think I should just go.

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HarryRug · 17/02/2020 11:58

Speak to your GP and tell your partner how you are feeling. It’s completely understandable and I am very sorry for your loss. You do, however, need some help in RL from a medic who can work out what’s best.

RightSwipe · 17/02/2020 12:02

Your poor thing Flowers. I would imagine anyone in your situation would feel that way. I’m so very sorry for your losses.

I have felt like running away in the past. I was dealing with multiple traumatic events in my life and was severely depressed. Are you getting any support, therapy etc? Therapy and a lot of rest helped me back to a more bearable place, but it was a slow process.

namechange8765455 · 17/02/2020 12:02

It's surely gotta be a totally natural reaction, love. Anyone would feel the same - it's grief. Flowers

I am here making you a cup of tea, wrapping you in a duvet and giving you a hug (bit weird since you don't know me, but hey ho).

XXX

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FuckedItNow · 17/02/2020 12:28

My GP referred me for counselling about 6 months ago and I had an initial consultation and then never heard again. There's a wait apparently.

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