To be so scared

[Rosebel]

I have my 20 weeks scan tomorrow and I'm really scared. I think probably because I haven't felt the baby kick. I had a scan last week after suffering stomach pains and everything was fine, strong heartbeat, baby moving but I'm still terrified. I can't understand why I feel like this as I don't remember being so scared with my other pregnancies.
I just w wondered if anyone else felt the same of this feeling of dread and terror is a sign something is wrong?

I had prenatal depression and anxiety with one pregnancy but not the others, it could well be that? Try not to worry too much, I know easier said than done!

I think probably because I haven't felt the baby kick.

Your placenta could be on the front. If it is it can muffle the early movements / kicks.

I had this feeling in my third pg and everything was fine. It is a sign of anxiety, not that something is wrong.

Well scan was fine and found out we're having a boy and I wanted to feel excited but I can't. My husband posted on Facebook and asked if I was going to. I said yes but I haven't.
I can't describe it. I feel so guilty for not being happy. I loved watching the baby on the monitor I really did but now I kind of feel flat.
I can't tell my husband he'll think I'm a heartless bitch. I'm so worried it's a sign I'll have postnatal depression. I had it with my eldest and it took a long time to bond and feel that overwhelming love.
I've suffered 4 miscarriages (early) so I should be over the moon I'm pregnant but I'm not. I just feel scared and out of my depth.

If it helps, my mental health was quite low during pregnancy but I was fine afterwards. I had some regular baby blues but no post natal depression. So I don’t think how you feel now is definitely an indicator of how you’ll get on after baby’s here. It might be worth talking to your midwife though?