I'll try and keep it short, I'm 99% sure I have PND. It's taken me a long time to admit it and reach out for help, I know it's my fault for letting it get this way.
Two days ago I went to make a gp appointment, they offered me one a month away. I thought this was too far so I told the receptionist what it was for, and she managed to squeeze one in in two weeks. I accepted this, then that night I felt more desperate. Luckily the doctors have a health visitor drop in on Tuesdays, so I once again worked up the courage, prepped everything I needed to say and yesterday took myself down to the doctors. The receptionist turned me away saying the health visitor wasn't doing her clinic today.
Last night was one of the worst yet. AIBU to ring and ask for a same day appointment today? The receptionists must be sick of seeing me/hearing my voice. Am I worthy of a same day? I'm not at the point of planning suicide or anything but i'm getting desperate. I think I'm most scared that by the time my appointment comes round in two weeks, I'll have lost all my courage and will cancel it.