Aibu to think I'm gross? (Picture)

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I feel fat, ugly, tired and unhealthy.

And what is this... it's ring worm, right? So I'm also disgusting and fungal too. (Is it ringworm??).

I have zero time for self care (no exaggeration). I just don't know how to fix myself or my life. The ring worm is my tipping point

It doesn’t look like ringworm too me, could be fungal though so try some anti fungal cream. Your not disgusting, I have been where you are now (mum to 2 DD’s with sn’s), it does get easier once you get through diagnosis and they get a bit older. I felt exactly the same as you when mine were small, I didn’t have time to look after myself, struggled to cook so ate too many take aways, gained weight and rarely went anywhere. I can assure you it won’t be like this forever.

Well the boys have fish cake, chips, sprouts and broccoli for dinner tonight. Chips requested by the two year old and sprouts and broccoli requested by the three year old that's an easy dinner. I'll bung something in the oven for me and dh when he gets home.

My one thing I'm changing is I'm currently decluttering the house. It is helping and making a positive difference.

The retraining eventually will help - my aim is to be able to retrain and switch to days by the time both boys are in school. I'll never see them otherwise

I'm disgusting- I've just consumed a big bag of chocolate eclairs (sweets) and a creme egg on way home.

For really great advice on ringworm, look at wrestlers forums. They are prone because of the contact although for the life of me not sure why theybhave it in the first place. They say start with alcohol or acetone before Lamasil spray (not cream) as it removes the spores and essentially allows healing to start straight away and stop spores spreading the infection. You are nothing of the sort by the way, we all have out flash points. Ringworm has tipped me over the edge before, I rescue strays and feel guilty when I get it for some reason. What is it about this crappy fungus that makes us feel vulnerable? Let's stick with the wrestlers

Oh so sorry OP things sound really hard for you at the moment. I would probably try and see the GP. My DC had something like that which I thought was ringworm and tried creams and sprays (did not know about alcohol/acetone tip above, great idea!) and eventually took to the doctor - I had misdiagnosed at home and so had pharmacist, it was actually Pityriasis rosea which starts with an oval patch and then you get a rash. Different treatment.

If you eat your feelings (I do too) can you think about sometimes (I know not always possible) doing something else with them that makes you feel better about yourself? Mani/pedi, massage, new face cream, other things you like?

Hugs OP. YOU ARE NOT DISGUSTING.

Don't put too much pressure on yourself. I once had to queue up in the pharmacy and when I got to the front ask for verruca medicine, nit shampoo, worm medicine and cold sore cream in front of the whole busy shop. I could feel everyone recoiling around me! Haha! Hope you get some treatment for the ringworm and look after your self.

I had ringworm it looked similar to that called into chemists showed him the pic he said slap this on, it was gone very quickly. Suggest you see the chemist and that will be one problem gone at least!!

Wow, OP, I can't believe you're finding the time and energy to de-clutter your house when you have all that going on. You're not disgusting, you're amazing! (I can't motivate myself to declutter the house and I only work 17 hours a week and don't have any children!)

Decluttering your house is a great start, and will hopefully inspire you to address the other things you want to change.

Getting advice re your debts might help, if you can get an appointment at the CAB or similar. That will help. And when you know a bit more about your eldest's needs, you might find you are entitled to DLA for him.

It's also worth doing an online check to see if you're getting all the benefits you're entitled to.

The skin thing will clear up with one of the remedies recommended by PPs, so don't fret about that. And once you start to feel a bit more in control of some of the things in your life, you'll soon feel motivated to lose some weight.

And you're both studying, so that will pay dividends in time.

You've got an awful lot going on, it's inevitable that you feel overwhelmed at times.

The decluttering makes a HUGE difference honestly. My dad bought me a skip rental - biggest skip (I know weird present right? but it changed my life!) around a year & half ago and I filled it up about 3 times (people kept stealing my crap ) and then I moved house into one that had been professionally cleaned and I've kept it as bare and clean as possible ever since. It's so refreshing!

I feel like you do a hell of a lot though, have a lot of the same issues, but I'd never dare make a thread about it - I think that's really brave to reach out like that.

I just keep thinking when both my kids are in school it'll be time to get back into the adult world. I've given them the whole of me for 10 years now, I need a new identity other than "mum"..."robot"... "slave".... "scum"....

Wish I could meet people like you on the school run or something, I think we'd be good friends! You sound awesome.

My late DM had ringworm on her arm,it looked exactly like your photo. Her doctor just gave her some cream to apply twice a day,got rid of it in a few weeks.

Thank you all. I'm going to try to get to the pharmacy later today. Although my two boys are still unwell so I dont know if we'll manage to get out

Everybody's a bit disgusting OP, our bodies are crawling with germs and it's not so long ago we were sniffing each other's bottoms and picking fleas out of each other's fur!

I recently had a furuncle (spot inside the nose) caused by chronic nose picking That's far more disgusting than ringworm I'd say.

You're not disgusting, just having a hard time at the moment :)

I don't think it's ringworm. I get very similar marks and it is fungal but has nothing to do with hygiene or being disgusting. It'll clear up just fine with some fungal cream, not a problem. Mine tend to be on the front of my torso under my bra line, or on the sides of my breasts, the doctor said I just need to dry myself better after washing, or start using talcum powder.