To wonder if 'this is it'?

[Werkinggirl]

Maybe this is just January blues, but I feel like i'm meant to be living a bit more rather than just existing. Work full-time, challenging school. I'm very introverted and low energy, don't do a lot in the week, just come home and watch the TV.
Normally run but it's just too cold to go outside, make sure I go to the gym 3x per week.
Fed up with trying to date. I never meet anyone IRL and anyone i've met and fancied already has a gf. Absolutely hate OLD.
A lot of bad people and depressing news.
I've had 2 friends in a month just randomly stop bothering/talking without explanation even though nothing at all has happened and I don't get why.
I do charity work in the holidays, donate, give blood etc. And that gives me a sense of reward. Just feel like i've lost purpose otherwise, I know i'm going a good job helping students to learn but I feel like i'm just going through the motions with life.
I've seen some people in Australia, working somewhere for 2 months or whatever and then going off travelling for another few months, seems like they are really living, though I guess that's just the image they are portraying on social media.
I know life could be a lot worse, not really sure what I am looking for to be honest.
Luckily I get the school holidays and I have a nice trip planned with family.

Do you ever go out, socially? with friends/colleagues? You seem stuck in a rut! How old are you? Is travelling an option financially?

Do it go travelling! There is more to life than this.

It's why we moved to NZ! Life is full of outdoor activities. Never too cold to run or even swim in the ocean (okay maybe a couple of months the water is a bit chilly). Less people. New friends. New opportunities. No Brexit

Teacher is on the NZ skill shortage list...

Does going overseas to work appeal to you OP? What is it that you’d like to be doing instead?
It sounds like you’re not very assertive and are waiting for life to just happen.

Hi OP,
I often feel like this so you are not alone.
As others have suggested, maybe you are stuck in a rut. Shake things up a bit.
Look into travelling or maybe volunteering abroad in the long school holidays.
Look into hobbies and social activities that you can enjoy with others.
You go to the gym regularly, are there new classes you could try to make it more interesting and maybe meet new people?
Good luck. Things will get better.

Go somewhere sunny for a couple of weeks and re-evaluate how your life is back home. Easier to see things clearer when they are not always right under your nose.

Thanks for the replies. Sadly travelling isn't an option financially, I taught abroad for a number of years which was great but I moved back to see more of my family. However I get the 6 weeks' holiday so could look into doing something then !
I feel depressed about the idea of meeting someone, like it will never happen. I don't want to have to rely on OLD because I can't stand it.
I don't go out much sadly, I go for drinks every couple of months but usually just see a couple of friends for a coffee.
Just wish I was more confident and had something which attracted people to me.

Hi OP,
I really understand what you are saying, I struggle with many of the same things. Lack of confidence can be very debilitating.
I think you need to work on building up your confidence.
You are a teacher, so what would you say to one of your students who is struggling with confidence? Are their any techniques you could work on yourself?

With regards to meeting someone maybe you could try some new hobbies or social activities. Are their any sports you would like to try? Or dance classes? It would be a good way of exercising and also meeting new people.

You are being very hard on yourself. Try and think more positively and see the new year as a time to make some changes and new plans.