To wish for a cure for OCD

[Tunnocks34]

Just ranting I guess. I’ve got OCD which presents as intrusive thoughts but also health anxiety focusing on my children.

Currently today I’ve had a panic attack after making a cup of tea because I imagined pouring the freshly boiled kettle on top of my 5 month olds head (please let me stress I would never, ever, ever do it - it’s just like I panic because I could do it?). My middle son has a cold, his second one in the last month so now I have spent 8 hours googling leukaemia symptoms in children. Someone asked me how I was today and I said ‘yeah I am thanks’ and I have spent two hours worrying about how much of a dick they think I am - to the point I considered messaging them to explain I should have said ‘I’m find thanks’ but logically I know not too.

I just can’t seem to enjoy my children. I’m constantly worrying they are dying. Or that I’m dying. Or imagining the various ways I could kill them if I ever wanted too. I’ve planned their funerals, planned my funeral.

AIBU to think that it’s just exhausting. Mental health issues are the worst.

OMG I do this. I’ve never told a soul.

That's interesting AlltheW- how did you find (i.e. go about finding) the hynotherapist that you saw?

I have OCD too. It’s fucking awful.

Please chase to get on the NHS list for CBT. Pay for it private if you can afford it

Always worth trying CBT etc. SSRI should be last resort. Often they work in tandem.

But sometimes there is a chemical imbalance in the brain and no amount of therapy will change it. The chemical deficiency needs to be addressed.

@GeePipe

Funny intrusive thoughts are probably quiet common im sure ive had a few. My dp has serious traits of ocd and adhd but wont get tested (bloody man). But todays intrusive thought from him had me in stitches even he laughed. Before he went to work he asked me to do some washing so i agreed. Then he asked me to double check our cats were not in the washing machine before i turned it on as he was very concerned i might accidently wash our cats to death.

Late onto this thread but this is a massive thing for my ds at the moment. The washing machine, plus the freezer and oven!!

I also have intrusive thoughts, due to my anxiety disorder.

It sucks.

The thing I keep reminding myself is that these thoughts aren’t “me”. It’s my reaction to those thoughts (aka “That’s horrible and I would never do that/I wouldn’t let that happen”) that’s actually me.

I am exactly the same. I have had CBT and tried a few different medications without success. I don’t know what to try next!