Aibu to stop seeing my friends?

[Bumpyroads]

Aibu and also what would you do?
Ok so I lost 3.5 stone with slimming world last year and have been a "target member" since September.
I am now a healthy size 10.
Since getting to my goal weight my mental health has gone down hill again, I suffer from depression and anxiety, I feel extremely pressured to keep to this weight and so have started binging on junk food. Whilst still attending slimming world. I haven't gained any weight back but obviously I am not eating healthy at all. I am struggling with my body image and looking in the mirror I still see fat! Even though rationally thinking I am not fat at all.
However since joining SW I have made some amazing friends, before I was very lonely, seeing them once a week is great. I also see them for walks once a week and the occasional night out.
However I am stuck in the middle of this diet culture which is seriously effecting my mental health.
Aibu to stop seeing them?
( I don't know if I am thinking rationally due to the depression 🙁)

Have you been to the GP re depression. You need to sort this before anything else will get better.

Yes I'm on sertraline 150mg.

I’m not sure that stopping SW and not seeing these friends are mutually exclusive.

As pp say see a GP about your depression.

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Have you had any counselling?

I didn’t know SW tried to keep you around even once you were established at your target weight. It sounds like it’s just to keep making money from members who no longer need their services. I mean, you don’t go for the rest of you life, do you?

I think it’s fine to leave but I would still see these friends for the walk etc.

Target members dont have go every week nor do they have pay? I don't think .

Sw let you attend for free if you stay within a few lb of your goal weight so some people do go permanently as part of their social thing. My mum has been going fit decades, losing and gaining the same 1 1/2 stone but she has a group of friends there. I agree though that you could see them outside of the Sw setting unless you think that's all you really have in common

How long have you been taking the antidepressants for?

Are these friends you met at SW I take it? Could you instead talk to them about it and suggest that you don’t talk about diets for a little bit with them? I think stopping seeing them altogether could potentially make you feel worse

No I've not had any councilling I got referred for it last year but them stupidly thought I was "better" last summer. So didn't reply to any of the letters. I did get referred fairly quickly too as I had attempted suicide.
I find making phone calls to arrange the councilling almost impossible due to an anxiety. I even find it hard ordering my bloody prescription.

I agree I can see my friends outside of SW how ever a topic of conversation is always going to revolve around losing weight. I'm not sure if this is good for me.
@HugeAckmansWife I see the same target members that have been coming for years and years and often wonder if I really want to still be going for such a long time! (I'm only 25!)
@annualleavepurchase I've been on my medication since October 2018, having recently increased the dose in October 2019.

I think your question is really "where can I go for help with my binge eating disorder?" Perhaps frame it that way.

Would you feel comfortable explaining to your friends how the 'diet talk' is affecting your mental health and would they mind not referencing it when they're with you? If they are good friends, they should have no problem accommodating this, then you can continue to meet them for walks etc, away from SW.
On another note, i would be asking your gp for help with the binge eating.