Can’t cope anymore just give up wish I could close my eyes and never up.

[LightOff]

I’ve tried to be positive I’ve reslly fucking tried I’m so nice to everyone and get treated like shit.
Everyone at work is ignore me all the time no conversation nothing I’ve tried with them but my questions get one word answers before they turn away.
My Dh won’t let me quit as we need the money. I have ptsd and the counsellinga not helping. My bf fell out with me at Xmas.
My dc won’t behave. The house is a state. I have no money. I feel physically sick with stress all the time.
I’ve applied for other jobs but nothing has worked out.
I nearly crashed the car this morning but I avoided an accident afterwards I thought it would have been nice to have crashed it might have had some respite away from all this

You seem to be incredibly down at the moment, do you have anyone nearby that you can talk to?

You poor poor thing.

Does your DH know how you are felling? Is he supportive at home?

At work, can you just look at it as a means to an end (salary)? Fuck 'em all, if that is how they behave you don't want them as friends. Can you go in, do your job and leave?

Is the situation with your BF salvageable?

You need to make your Dh see how ill this is making you. Cant you go sick for a while and give yourself some respite? Is there a manager or anyone else at work that you trust and can talk to and have you got any idea why your colleagues are behaving this way?

No job is worth this, apply for agency work until you get something else sorted.
Can you take sick leave?
Don’t look all the problems together, just focus on one at time.
There will be better days 💐
Don’t give up.