Very very nervous posting this so please be kind.
We have a business together, we have a great life, have been seeing each other for 2 years but known each other for much longer, but something just isn't right. He's not the one for me. I love him but not in the way I should. The problem is I change my mind. Just before Christmas he was the man of my dreams and I felt so lucky. Nothing has changed in our relationship and I dont know why Im having doubts, but the love just isn't there right and I have felt this way a few times in the past two years only for it to return. Hes a great man, but surely if it was right then I wouldn't be thinking this way?
We don't have a perfect relationship but everything that is wrong isn't visible. For example, hes a workaholic and I don't voice it very often but I really would like to be with someone who enjoyed life a bit more and had a more relaxed lifestyle.
Hes in love with me and this will come as a shock since we have discussed marriage and kids. I feel so bad for him but it will also turn my life upside down as we run a business together which I put all my savings into what will happen to that? He financially supports me a significant amount, I am going to have to get a better side job to rent somewhere myself. im broke really. All my friends were his first or are couples and we do couples things together so I don't really have anyone. I know I can stay living this way for a long time but it feels wrong.
Does anyone have any advice for me? Please be kind im feeling very lonely.
I know deep down I need to break it off soon as its not fair on him but I feel I need to get myself into a better position first. I keep changing my mind but as soon as I bring it up with him it will be over, and I don't think ive made a decision yet. I dont even know if i'm brave enough to do it. I feel sick to my stomach. AIBU to not tell him i'm thinking of breaking up if I havent yet made a decision?