To start a moany thread where I can just moan about all the fucking shit things in my life? *ttc warning*

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I've had enough. I've fucking had enough. There's obviously something wrong with me because I can't fucking stand ttc anymore. We did everything right this month. I've spent a fucking fortune on an electronic fertility bracelet that I've been wearing for a year to try and understand my cycles. I'm usually disappointed every month but I bounce back and start trying again. But this is the special edition 25th fucking time in a row I have been kicked in the teeth and it's tipped me over the edge seeing that bastard pink spotting on the toilet roll. I have been to the doctor, she said my thyroid was underactive and gave me tablets and a time frame in which to come back. The time frame is up. All my friends are parents. All my siblings are parents. All my cousins are parents. I just want to be one too. I started this post angry but now I just have tears running down my face I feel so depressed. I feel like a failure while everyone around me gets pregnant. I hate this. Fuck you ttc. Just fuck you.

Oh OP I am sorry. It is exceptionally shit. Moan away.

I guess your thyroid now being sorted now gives you the same odds as any healthy couple, so it could realistically take a few months yet. A friend eventually conceived after getting her thyroid sorted which was missed for ages, but I know it still took a little while. I know the change she did see which have her hope was that she started to get positive ovulation tests - she wasn’t getting them before as here thyroid levels meant she simply wasn’t ovulating.

Has your GP run more tests to make sure your thyroid hormones are. Is where they should be? After 2 years of TTC, I am sure you are supposed to be referred for fertility investigations as a general rule. I actually managed to get referred sooner because I was tracking ovulation using body temp and OPKs and it was clear my luteal phase was way too short; luckily, my GP thought my tracking was credible.

Thank you for replying. I went to the doctor about 15 months in and she did blood tests which came back with underactive thyroid. The doctor then said she wanted to wait for 6 months for my meds to take affect and told me to come back after 9 months of no success. So I do need to make an appointment and go back. Its just so heart breaking to not be pregnant yet and I'm early 30s, I stupidly googled about fertility in early 30s and it says it drops after 32 and then dramatically after 35 it probably sounds ridiculous and over the top but I'm just worried I've waited to long if something is wrong.

So sorry OP

So shit that you spend most of your adult life trying to avoid getting pregnant and then when you do want a baby it seems impossible in any case.

Could you get referral to a fertility clinic now?

Yes, it's so ironic how that works isn't it? Ironic and shit . I will be referred to the fertility clinic I just have to make the appointment with my doctor. Honestly never thought I'd be in this position just assumed I'd get pregnant relatively quickly. I'm just so pissed off and upset.

Google is a bitch.
I'm so sorry you're going through this.
The time frame the doctor gave you is shitty too .
If you have the money have you tried going to a fertility clinic? The ones where they test it all for you. Just thinking it could hopefully give you direct answers and less waiting around.

Sorry didn't read your last update fully

I’ve been there OP and it is monumentally shit. Feel free to moan and scream and cry and do whatever you need to do to release the angst and hurt.
On the plus side your time is now up for the “let’s wait and see” and you can actively try to look at things which might be making this harder than it should be.

In terms of stats re fertility, you have to take it all with a pinch of salt - age is just one factor, yes there are of course links with reductions (because you’re heading towards the back end of fertile life and not at the front of it like you are at 18/20) but it’s just ONE factor. There are so many other factors which contribute to conception success, which in a way is both a blessing and a curse! But it means there are things to look at, and most of them can be done quickly and without too much intrusion.

You haven’t said but has partner had sperm testing done?

It’s an absolute shitter of a hand to be dealt to be the one to struggle when everyone else just seems to pop them out easily, but you’re not alone and at least now you’re fully on your journey of finding some answers!

I'm sorry you are going through this

I don’t know why MNHQ deleted my message. I was basically trying to say that I found out I had PCOS and was told I’d never have kids. I changed up my diet cut out dairy and wheat and started eating better. I became pregnant three months later! Crazy I know. Hopefully they won’t delete this message? I don’t understand why they would.

Diet is everything