To think I can’t have a VBAC

[Goldandblack]

I had a c section for my first due to breech presentation. I’m now due to have my 2nd but I’ve convinced myself I can’t give birth naturally. A number of reasons including:
My mum tried twice and ending up having EMCS both times. She can’t remember but she thinks either it was failure to progress or she was told her pelvis was too narrow and babies heads were too big. I have a similar frame/body shape to my mums back then so I’ve convinced myself I can’t do it either which I know is probably silly as each person is different.
I also get anxious and faint easily.
Have also had vaginismus after repeated thrush infections and absolutely hate any kind of internal exam (fine with sex though)

Part of me feels like I should try for a vaginal birth due to the quicker recovery but another part of me dreads the possibility of an EMCS and the recovery from that. Really can’t figure out what to do.

Listen to your own intuition. I had an emergency section with dd1 but was quite upset about it. For dd2 I was offered an elective section but at the time wanted to try for a vaginal birth. As it turned out once I was two weeks over due I was booked for a c section but when they were getting me ready for surgery I had already started labour! I ended up with a rotational forceps as dd2, like dd1, was not in the right position and became ‘stuck’. The recovery was worse than the emergency section and years later I ironically wish I had taken up the original offer of an elective section!

IME recovery was much faster with my EMCS than my VBAC

12 hours of labour with my second ultimately resulted in a second EMCS, but I don't regret trying. Mostly I didn't want the CS recovery to affect me being able to care for my toddler, but I didn't hesitate to have the CS once they were concerned about the baby's health.

I had a VBAC for child number 2, it wasn't a big problem.