To feel robbed of my parents

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I know I’m being selfish and there is a lot worst things in the world.

But I’m feeling sad.

My dad had a life changing stroke when I was 16. He ended up losing his voice/arm/leg. I was a proper daddies girl and overnight we were
Told he wouldn’t survive. I was the only one living at home and I can remember it clear as day my mum waking me up screaming because he has
Woken her up having the stroke.

I miss his voice and his hugs. He’s a darling though as I adore him. He is amazing and my idol.

Fast forward 3 years and I had two children (stupidly young, no idea why! Ended up marrying my “first love”- now divorced) my mum was diagnosed with stomach cancer. She died 6
Months later 7 weeks after my second child was born.

It’s been 10 years tomorrow since my mum died.

The last 6ish months Iv been missing her like crazy. I feel like it’s all new again. My heart physically hurts. I have no idea what to do.

Do I seek counselling? I didn’t have any and I ended up with extreme PND.

Am I being unreasonable to feel this way?

Why now?

I’m now extremely happily married and have another child.

Of course you aren't being unreasonable

Grief is one of the hardest emotions to deal with and there will always be times you miss someone more and find it harder to live life without them.

Get some proper grief counselling.

Absolutely get counselling. So sorry for your losses. These are heartbreaking things and of course you need to talk about them with somebody.

Counselling sounds like a good idea. Everyone experiences grief a bit differently but it's definitely not unreasonable to be feeling pain.

Who are the insensitive 9% who voted YABU ?!!

OP, some counselling would be a good idea I think