Mainly posting here for traffic.
Had first DS a week ago, much wanted after losses including one in second trimester.
I started well but I’ve become increasingly anxious all week to the point where I’m struggling to eat, feel really tearful - my back is so tense.
I’m worrying about everything.
I keep checking his temp - his neck and back will feel warm but his chest a little cool and then I get upset because I’ve let him get cold and I’m doing it all wrong and I’m going to make him ill.
I’ve had trouble with breastfeeding although now he seems to be feeding better but I’m still
Not convinced I’m doing it properly and he’s latching on correctly as he often has a few sucks then just falls asleep. Midwives and health visitors just say is he latching on you should be able to feel it but I don’t know - I can feel him sucking but I don’t know if that’s it.
I’m obsessing over his nappies - he had some
Pink staining in them, cousin who is midwife and my own midwife plus heath visitor have said it’s fine it happens in newborns, particularly breast fed ones but I keep thinking I’m not giving him enough milk even though I’m still getting wet nappies (slightly yellow).
His poo is still greeny Although it’s no longer black and only changed to green in the last couple of days but I thought it should
Be yellow by now so again, I keep thinking I’m feeding him all wrong and maybe should just switch to formula although he hasn’t lost ten percent of his birth weight and they were happy with his checks.
I just want to cry. Every bedtime I stress about the temp of the room and what to dress him
In and then can’t sleep because I have to keep checking he’s breathing.
During the day if he feels a little cool I just want to cry because I haven’t looked after him properly and I’m letting him get cold but I don’t want him to overheat.
I sound mad don’t I!
After our loss, I guess my anxieties have gone into overdrive as o can’t quite believe now he’s here it’s going to be ok.