Bit of background- sold our 4 bed semi and bought a 4 bed detached that needed some work doing. Lived with in laws whilst it was being done. New house has always been my dream home, it just felt right. It took a few weeks for the work to be done and we stayed in it for the first night a month or so ago. We hadn’t unpacked and I struggled with negative feelings and anxiety when staying there and so we moved back in with the in laws until I was ‘ready’ for another few weeks and I started 50mg of sertraline and counselling. My husband also got made redundant in this time. Thought I was ‘ready’ and we moved in 2 nights ago.
Since then I’ve been struggling. We have a 2 year old DS who seems to love the house but I can’t warm to it and keep having really negative feelings. After our first night here I started with my old feelings of anxiety which I hadn’t had for a couple of weeks and got a fever last night, spent the whole night freezing and sweating. Now I can’t help but think it’s a bad house and it’s making me unwell and the thoughts are spiralling. I don’t know what to do, I know logically that’s not the case and I’m unwell because I’m unwell and been worrying etc but I can’t help but associate it to the house and it’s spiralling my negative feelings. I can’t stop crying. Has anyone else has this? Does it get better? What can I do?
Please help, I feel like I’m going crazy.