I’m a hypochondriac and I need help

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Hi. I need advice. I do have a lot of medical issues. Genuine ones I have been in hospital with for years: severe asthma, allergies (have an epipen so they’re real!!), eczema and endometriosis. These are all diagnosed and all severe. I have constant medication such as injections I give myself at home etc. On immunosuppressive injections.

However. I am always feeling run down. Always feel fluey and sick. My eyes feel bruised, I get ibs etc. I suspect from immunosuppressants as they do tend to trigger catching things easier. But I keep convincing myself that a) I’m infertile because of the endo and it makes me panic a lot even though I have no proof of this being the case and b) that I have cancer (my auntie found blood cancer because she had what seemed like a really nasty cold and got blood tests when it wouldn’t go away)

I just need to stop as I feel like I’m constantly thinking I’m going to die. I don’t know how to settle my brain

I mean this in the kindest possible way, OP, but the reality is you are going to die, you can't really do anything that will change that. Your task really is deciding whether you want to live well first, or not. If you do, that will mean things like: taking good care of yourself;doing thing to cultivate your wellbeing; stop eating your life on pointless things you have no control over; and checking whether your choice of what to spend your time and attention on are increasing your well being or not.

Hi OP, I really feel for you - my son has multiple allergies and was on immunosuppressants for a long time.

He was generally quite unwell through this period catching every germ going. So I don't think you are being a hypochondriac actually. Having allergies and having to carry an Epi pen can be quite worrying and to be frank with you - I have been a basket case at times over the worry of him having a anaphylaxis. What I'm trying to say is be kind to yourself and sparkly gives good advice also.