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[Waymere98]

Posted in a different section but no answers.

I’ve got anxiety disorder and for the last year got along on no medication quite well and been doing a lot better. Today I had a major set back.
I’ve been feeling sick the past two days and my ears have been popping ( heads been foggy and think I have a virus) I’ve hardly been eating but lately have been waking up feeling quite nervous (almost like the feeling you get when you have a job interview or driving test) I hate the feeling and it makes me sweat and grind my teeth.
I went shopping today and had a massive panic attack in the car while my dp was driving, never had one quite as bad, I hyperventilated and my whole face tingled. It was that bad I told do to drive my to hospital.
I really feel as if I’m having a breakdown, I’ve had bad thoughts all day and at one point felt
Like the world was against me and that I was dieing.
I’m now feeling a little better. I’ve cried the whole day and feel a bit dizzy when standing up I almost feel like I have depersonalisation.
I feel strange and not myself at all. I’m scared I’m going to have another attack and lose my mind. At the times I am in a panic I can’t think straight and feel like no one can help me, they are terrifying.
I can’t go on medication as I can’t stand the side effects. Sorry this is in the aibu section. I just want to know if anyone else has felt like this? Am I having a break down of
Some sort?
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I can't relate OP, but would advise visiting the gp for some advice. If you're decided against medication, perhaps some CBT may help. Sorry you're feeling so unwell.

A panic attack is a warning sign. It doesn't mean you are going crazy, and the effects can remain for a while afterwards (might be why you're still feeling weird). Sometimes these things are triggered by a major emotional event, like a trauma, and other times by a smaller thing that throws us off balance, like a minor virus or even the bus being late. I have had panic attacks for many years. I found counselling and learning my warning signs very helpful. Every couple of years I seem to get a new surge of anxiety. Usually this is when I'm pushing myself too hard. Recently they have happened when I have been physically under the weather and tying to push through it.

You need to see your doctor. There may be different medication which doesn't have side effects for you, and there is certainly counselling including CBT which would help you.

You also need to think carefully about your selfcare. Don't push through physical ill health at the cost of your mental health.

Do go the GP, they may be able to help or discuss other options. I understand how horrible it is though, once I’ve had a panic attack I don’t want to do anything else for the whole day.