So this time last year i was pregnant and round xmas and new year i miscarriaged. Was the worst thing to happen to my family, i remember every little thing and every day of the miscarriage.
I'm coming up to 23 weeks pregnant and the memorys of last year is flooding back, but everyone is telling me not to think about it, even my husband said "why would you want to think about it" just them saying it makes me feels so alone, even my parents and sister has said it.
How can i forget something so painful, especially my bedroom and bathroom, i still see the blood stains, everytime i go to doctors or hospital for this pregnancy i have memorys flooding me back like it was yesturday, it really does hurt.
I'm trying to make this xmas has happy and jolly as i can, because last xmas was just so painful for everyone... i honestly feel so alone and i just can't hold in my tears anymore. Aibu and being silly? How do i let it go, forgetting it isn't possible, and it makes it so hard to enjoy this pregnancy when i'm just has anxious that something bad will happen too.
I just want to enjoy this xmas, instead i'm dreading it...
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BigTWDFan · 29/11/2019 16:06
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