I am currently in a relationship with my son's father and have been together for 6 crazy years. Recently, I am wondering if he is actually the right guy for me but I am so torn because I'd hate for my son to grow up in a broken home.
I didn't grow up with my parents, I came to America with my dad but he couldn't care for me so I went to live with a different family. I always felt a need to be loved and to feel like I belonged. I didn't get that growing up. I desperately want my son to be in a loving home where both his biggest supporters live.
2 years ago I broke up with my boyfriend. I thought for good. He was an abusive person mentally and physically. On the day I left him, he said,
"I've thought of ways of killing you"
After a year he charmed me and I found myself right back in his grasp.
In 2019, I lost my dad in May and my mother in July. I am desperately trying to hold on to any sense of family I have left and that's my son and my boyfriend.
Since the death of my parents, he has torn me down mentally and I don't want to be in a relationship any longer. I am afraid of the extent he will go to. Currently contemplating and lost.