To think the physiotherapist has turned me evil?

[Stuckinarut81]

I went to the physiotherapist last week because of chronic lower back pain (have been suffering for a few years). She couldn’t find anything too wrong with my back which was a relief, but said that the pain was caused by my muscles being tight around my lower back, which is often caused by stress.

This made a lot of sense as I’ve had more than my fair share of stressful life events - off the chart amounts of stress really. So anyway, she manipulated my back and gave me some exercises to do at home.

Since I left, my back has felt almost completely better which is amazing. However, I’ve been so angry over the last week which really isn’t like me. I keep snapping at DP and I have no patience at all. It’s similar to PMT but a bit different, hard to explain. And I’m not due to have PMT for another couple of weeks so definitely not that.

Is it possible that through her relaxing the muscles in my back, she has released some kind of suppressed incandescent rage from within me? My stress was largely caused by a very abusive ex who yes I do have every reason to be angry towards, although this isn’t something I think about day to day anymore. I am really horrible to be around at the moment and whilst being pain free is great, I’m kind of dreading the next appointment in case it makes the rage worse!

Is this even a thing that can happen?

I wouldn't rule it out! I get migraines and lower back pain- my osteopath said to me one day that by consistently absorbing all the emotional trauma without releasing it would only keep me coming back to him.(mega divorce) He told me to use a punch bag- I had no idea how much I had in me! I used a punch bag and sobbed- cathartic beyond words!

I should add- I felt like I was coping- I wasn’t- I was swanning and making it look like I was!

I believe that toxins can be released during massages which can make people feel ill or change their behaviour, so I bet that is what's happening to you now as a result from your session, especially if your back is feeling better. Maybe just drink plenty of water and try and sweat them all out. I'm sure they won't last.

A young lady I know got lung cancer, never smoked. She did some research and came to the conclusion that people can hold grief in their lungs. She'd been through some really tough things the year prior. I believe her. Our bodies are incredible.

I hold stress in my shoulders which gives me back pain. Yes, releasing the stress makes you crabby.

Try breathing out into your hands. Visualise the breath turning into negative words ( ie everything you are cross about), and turning into a piece of paper. Physically crumple up the paper and throw it away. Breathe in golden, loving air. And repeat.

Perhaps her talking about stress being the cause, prompted you to reflect on those past situations, consciously or unconsciously. And now your brain is mulling over it in the background. Maybe a bit of therapy would help you to process it all and prevent the stress going to your back, iyswim?

Perhaps when your back was sore you were using all your energy to deal with physical pain, keeping the thing that caused it suppressed. Now the physical pain has gone, you are able to deal with your emotions and stress which caused it.

Doing backbends in yoga gives me the rage so there could be something in it.

Read Dr Sarnos book, language a bit out of date but really interesting and relevant to your situation.

He believed pain is made up of internal, unaddressed rage. Many people follow this theory.

Louise hay is another alternative book, about pain/illness being caused by emotional issues.
If you read up on it, it’s very interesting.
Maybe you’ve released the emotion you were holding there?

Thanks everyone, that all makes a lot of sense. I’ve been feeling really emotional too, the grief for losing my dog last year has been feeling really raw and unbearable over the last week too, like it did when he first died.

Will it stop? I’m genuinely worried that I’m just an angry/emotional person now, and I don’t want it to cost me my relationship. I’m also worried about the next appointment in case it gets worse!

I believe that you can store stress in your muscles. Give yourself a quick blast of these tones. it should reset your brainwaves. Just watch the green dot and let it zap whatever you have stirred up.

Theres a massage technique known as 'rolfing' which is meant to release emotional pain

Reiki is excellent for this.

I'm a believer in the body storing emotions.

I have had upper back pain for almost 3 years now, which correlates with not feeling supported. I've tried doing regular massages and began to cry during my last one. I was also just more weepy.

Will it stop? I’m genuinely worried that I’m just an angry/emotional person now, and I don’t want it to cost me my relationship.

Yes, it will stop - & yes, I am with pp who believe it's a reaction to relieving physical tension & associated stress. We are still learning about (or remembering, as many cultures are/were more in touch with the holistic self) mind/body connection & the theory of suppressed rage/trauma is compelling.

I’m also worried about the next appointment in case it gets worse

It might do ... but only for a while. It's a process, & if you are releasing this much anger & upset, then clearly you need to. Keep going, & get all that bad old stuff out.

I am so sorry about your dog