I’m 38. I work 18 hours a week as a nurse in a non manual role (I basically sit in an office and patients come to me for basic treatment, dressings, injections, suture removals etc) so as far as nursing goes, it’s an easy enough role.
But I feel totally exhausted and overwhelmed. I start at 8:30 with a 20 minute drive to get there. I finish at 1pm and only work mom-Thursday. When I get home I take my dog out for a couple of hours, usually home by 4pm. But I’m just so exhausted. I feel like a fraud when other people are working 40 hours + (my DH included) and I’m desperate to give up work (or just work two days a week) but I know it’s unreasonable.
What on earth is wrong with me? My nursing registration ran out in October and I actually considered not renewing it so that I’d have an excuse not to work. I’ve stopped doing all the stuff I enjoy (martial arts class, running etc) and DH and I have booked a meal twice in the past two weeks and have cancelled both as I just can’t face going out, I’m just too tired.
I also dislike my job as I don’t like being around people. I thought of retraining as a dog trainer/kennel hand but you need a degree which I can’t afford to do. I just feel so trapped.