My son loves my mother in law more than me

[Meriem14]

I live with my in laws can't afford to move , they are good people and they help a lot with my son. As a wife and for cultural reasons I cook for my husband and I (my sole responsibility) after giving birth I was up the next day cooking and cleaning and taking care of my newborn who had jaundice after three days and spent time at the hospital later on for it, my first few months with him were chaotic and sad I had really bad Postpartum depression and suffered from and infection that was hospitalised for during these hard times j would clean cook and care for my husband and child but my mother in law looked after my son most of the time not by choice but because I had my "duties" to fulfill I wasn't able to continue breastfeeding even though I have tried soooo hard to relactate and keep it going but there was nothing there that and with the time missing between me and my son I feel as I have lost touch with him as.if he doesn't know me or want me. Am I going crazy here? Can he think my mother in law is his mother ? What do I do about this? Can I fix it ? I love him so much and don't want to lose him It's breaking me to pieces seeing how he is with her Vs me ! What have I done wrong I feel as this is all Amy fault because if my situation! Please help me

I married my husband after a very passionate love story otherwise I wouldn't stand living with ILs, when I was pregnant I suffered so much with morning sickness and wasn't well most the time he took care of me like a princess never had to clean he did it all he would eat whatever his mum made even if he hated but towards the birth he fell really ill and needed to go on a special diet hence why I had to take over.
Thank you for the Family learning advice will get on it asap

I promise you I am standing up I would never allow my relationship with my ds go to vain today was a great day with him and he saw MIL for 10min which is good enough for me I did my work played with him sang danced etc

Stick your baby in a sling so you can be together while you do chores. Also do fewer chores! Getting out with the baby is good too, maybe try a local playground? The mum friends I made at our local playgroup when my dc were tiny have been a huge support to me over the years.

I'll never give up on my child and my little family moving out is one of my main priorities, and you are right she is trying to do exactly that and I will not allow it, only I can raise my child and my husband is not enjoying it either

There will be loads of affordable baby groups in Bradford. Here's some ideas bd4communitytrust.org.uk/bd4-family/

Best of luck. Just spend time with your baby, and be the one to feed, change, and put to bed - it's ok if the baby gets excited to see your MIL. It doesn't mean that your bond can't be there. Perhaps speak to your Health visitor (alone), mine communicates via text so that may be an option, you can explain that you'd rather meet in a community venue than at home.