My DS is going to be one on Thursday and I know it’s completely normal to be worried about something happening to your child. However my mind seems to be on this subject constantly. It’s bad timing at the moment too, as when on Facebook and other social media there’s a lot about baby and infant loss awareness.
I thought I was over the panic about SIDs, but have recently come across stories of toddlers dying unexpectedly and with no reason. It can happen to adults too apparently.
I accidentally read a story today when I was reading up about this (my own fault I know) and saw that a perfectly healthy little girl died 15 minutes after she’d been put down for a nap. I can’t cope with reading things like this as it stays with me for the rest of the week or longer.
I used to obsessively look stuff up like this when I was going through very bad health anxiety previously. That was before I had my DS and I was consistently worrying about my own health.
I find I’m getting intrusive thoughts a lot of the time which I know is a bad sign.
Can anyone relate please? He still sleeps with a breathing monitor on!