AIBU to have never felt so alone?

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It's been an eventful year so far. Finally escaped an abusive relationship, secured a non molestation order. Faced facts that I'm going to have to sell the family home so that he can waltz into the sunset with a large chunk of my money.

I've met someone new but he doesn't live locally and work means we don't get to see each other as often as we'd like.

I've been looking at houses today and tonight I really feel like I've never been so alone. DD is at her dads for the weekend. Girls night out that had been planned was cancelled because of problems in other people's lives. My head is all over the place. No idea what to do. Buying a house all on my own is some scary shit.

Its scary, but it is also a real opportunity. No compromise, no settling, no arguments over any aspect. Just a lovely home for you and your dd in 12 months time you will be sat in your new home celebrating your fresh start and feeling really fricking proud that you did it all yourself.

First of all, well done! You've got out of an abusive relationship and nothing will ever be that bad again. Take the time to breathe calmly and decide who you are and what you want out of life. Buying a house on your own is exciting! I say this as someone who got out of a shit marriage and has had a much happier life since.

Yes it can be scary - but there is never some arsehole sneering at you and putting you down. Find a house that will be your sanctuary - something you can make your own, that you will be happy and peaceful in. Remember how miserable you were in the family home and remember that your new place, wherever it is, will never have those unhappy memories.

Here if you want some company.

Be proud that you are moving on

OP it can be totally terrifying starting a new life but this is a part of your life you have complete control over.You have a total freedom to make your new life exactly how you want it on your own terms.Be proud of yourself for escaping and being able to be you with no more fear. Take baby steps til you feel more comfortable and confident in yourself and go and grab this life by the balls...you so deserve to be happy and I hope you will be.Be brave you have a lot to look forward to...