To be up to here with everything

[GetUpAgain]

Feeling so fucking fed up, no point in this post but I am so down and can't tell anyone irl because I am actually the strong one. In my marriage, in my family, in my work place. I have mentioned here and there that I am feeling a bit low and I just see the sheer panic in the face of whoever I mention it to. Like 'oh shit but I rely on GetUp'.

Anyway today I have managed to not resign from work or walk out on my family or blow my wages on a one way ticket somewhere sunny. Not sure I have managed to do a lot else but hey ho.

If this is the menopause I want a fast forward button.

Solidarity OP, I've been there. I read something a while ago that said 'if you have no other mantra at the end of the day, you can say "I'm still here". I like that.

Can you get any space for yourself at all? If you download the Headspace app that has good meditations for calming your thoughts.

I like that buttery I'm going to steal that. OP the fact that you can actually reflect like that shows that you're strong enough you can fight for yourself too. Definitely evaluate your life and see if there's anywhere you can take a step back. I've had to do this as I wanted to access counselling to help me deal with my recurrent miscarriages and it's taken me three weeks to actually find a counsellor who could fit me. Because before this I did not have an hour spare a week I could "spend" on myself. Just starting to think that I need to access help has already helped me evaluate and work on supporting myself. It's a long ass road and I know the panic in people's eyes that you're talking about. But you need to look after yourself otherwise your no use to man nor beast, they may fall a bit but they'll get back up.

Keep your head up and massive pat on the back for just getting through each hour and each day!

Thank you both. Yes "I'm still here" is great.

Sorry for your troubles too. I tried Headspace a few years ago but found the mans voice too annoying!!!