Firstly, I know I am blessed in countless ways but can I just have a little rant??!! I'm off work today because I've just had ENOUGH!! Love my job but lots of issues currently re management, work load and general relentless pressure, I've been aware recently my work/life balance is a bit askew and, combined with waking up 5am every morning with a pit of despair in my stomach, just couldn't face going in. Could probably cope with all of above if didn't feel so put upon at home, have two secondary school age kids who are good kids generally (they are the things I worry about the least) but I seem to have to be constantly on at them to remember to do things, take things in to school, keep rooms tidy blah blah blah, I do have a husband but pretty much EVERYTHING falls to me, I realise I have created this life as have a need for control and order but I am worn out. Physically I am exhausted & there doesn't feel like much joy or light in my life, neither home or work are a respite. My husband is fundamentally a good man but also very self absorbed and can be volatile verbally & prone to depression, consequently I try very hard to keep the peace but at cost to myself. Re support outside the home? I have friends but tend to be the one supporting them, my one very good friend is all loved up in a new relationship & I feel, perhaps doesn't have time for me these days. So, sorry, long post & am clearly feeling pretty sorry for myself.