To be Done

[Broken11Girl]

I'm 5ft0 innocuous meek appearing and I am SICK of Twats thinking they can treat me like scum and take out their issues on me because they don't dare to on a 6ft muscular bloke. That is why me. I don't do anything bad.
Oooo I dare put my bag on a seat on the train if there is one. No-one needed it. I will remove if I see the train is getting full. I might miss that. Fine, nicely ask me to move it - no issue. But no, people have to get rude and snarky about it.
I have a hidden disability. The amount of snarky passive aggressive comments about me using a lift, I always let people in wheelchairs, with kids in buggies, with luggage etc go first, one 7 1/2 st 5ft person doesn't make a difference.
I have mh issues and have had shitty comments about self-harm scars, and unwell behaviour.
De to my anxiety I look at my phone a lot when out. I don't deal with switching my attention well. I had a twat literally come to a stop in front of me in the supermarket. I had some 15yo girl shop assistant call me rude for daring to glance at it while she fuckin took hours to process my transaction having barely acknowledged me and chatted to her colleagues.
I can't deal with carrying the baskets in shops, they hurt my arms and get so heavy. I have had so much shit for that, either carrying shopping I. My arms or using a trolley for not that much but more than I can carry Sone other obnoxious 15yo girl sneered at me Should've used a basket shouldn't you when I put my items on the shelf to enable me to pick up another item.
My cat escapes but has no road sense, I was looking for her and she ran into a front garden. I followed her. It is a naive suburban area, ell whose land is whose, ao difficult to t and building is a residential hon e, garden is obviously part of it eh picnic tables, backed onto hall or canteen etc which was all dark and shut being about 9pm, a guy appeared and started shouting at me for 'trespassing' - explained was looking for cat, said oh you should've knocked on door and we'd have helped you look um I didn't require help cat is terrified of strangers so no way would have let them 'find' her, cat darts so in the time it would have taken faffing to get oooo people to 'help' would have been far away, scared and hiding. He threatened to call police WHY
Once I was in the toilets in a bar fixing a wardrobe mishap with a safety pin, dropped pin, picked it up, a woman calls out something like Who's that, had no idea who she was taking to, next thing I know on the way out security are there...apparently I was trying to steal her shopping um yeah master criminal
WHY
WHAT DUD I FO
WHY DO PEOPLE WSLK ALL OCER KE
WHY DO RYEY THINK TGEY XAN TREAT ME LIKE SHIT
I MUST BE EVIL
IM DONE WITH LIFE

Good grief. That’s a whole lot of shit going on there OP.

Oh and sick of Twats behind me in shops getting impatient because I dare take two seconds to put my items in my bag. I mean a few items, not trying to do a weekly shop in a Spar. Thwt tut, put their items on the counter next to mine and talk to the assistant who Never asks them to have some patience and manners. My anxiety means I panic and become clumsy and take twice as long to do it. Twat tonight ACTUALLY HANDED ME MY ITEMS yes picked them up and gave them to me, I did not want a stranger to touch them tbh.
FUCK THEM ALL
DONE

This will go well.

I think it sounds like you would benefit from some counselling to help you deal with your anxiety and other issues.
You could put a different spin on almost all of those situations that makes them much more likely eg the guy handing you your items at the check out - he was probably trying to help you.

Not everyone is out to get you, and if you experience rudeness from people then the more normal reaction is to defend yourself and/or walk away. I think some counselling might help you manage to be a bit more resilient.

you need to chill.

Some people actively target seats with bags on train, even when there's space, some of them are even on MN. Just roll your eyes and move your bag for the twat - or don't put your bag on the seat at all. Who cares.

I use lifts when I feel like it, I have absolutely no disability, no one has ever dare make a comment about it.

You walk in a stranger's garden, is it so shocking they ask what the heck you are doing there?

I strongly recommend counselling because it sound like your feel targeted when it all comes from you.

I agree with @Didntwanttichangemyname.

Some of the things you have mentioned would be perceived as polite to me such as the basket comment and handing you your shopping. Were they trying to be helpful? Also the safety pin incident, why didn't you just reply when they called out saying 'oh sorry I have just dropped something, don't mimd me.'

If this is real I would like to suggest most of these non events are more of a you problem.

You were walking whilst looking at your phone and are cross that someone stopped in front of you? Would it have been better if he'd walked into you? You need to look where you're going then you can avoid other people too