Don't really know where to go from here (eating disorder)

[PrincessandthePeach]

Posting here for traffic, but I've been on a diet for around 3 months. I was overweight anyway, but in the last 12 weeks I've lost around 3 and a half stone.
The worrying thing I guess is, I have been making myself sick after eating. At first it was only a few times a week after dinner but now I'm vomiting up most meals. My weight has become an obsession, I feel worthless and ugly because of my weight. I'm constantly analysing myself in the mirror to see my weight and I still feel as big as I did before I lost the 3 1/2 stone even though everyone else says they can really see the weight coming off me.
I'm really worried about the vomiting, everytime I do it I tell myself it will be the last time but I don't think I can stop. I do it after I eat because I feel guilty (even after a normal meal) and anytime I eat I can feel the weight piling on me. Anyone have any suggestions

You need to see your GP. I had similar issues and they sent me for some counselling.

See your GP, before this becomes worse. The longer it goes on the harder this is to break. They'll refer you to an eating disorder group, but you might well be on a waiting list for months.

Also, buy and read Brain over Binge, the recovery guide. The Bulimia Help Method is good too. I really recommend them both.

The hardest thing is wanting to recover, bulimia is addictive and it's very difficult to let go of.

OP I'm literally coming out the other end of this.
I've been 'purging' for over a year. My weight loss stopped after I'd lost a bit but it was habit and I kept doing it. At the time I read tips and techniques online on the pro-mia websites for being better at doing it and hiding it.
It's only been in the last 2 months that I've stopped. I occasionally do it if I feel overly full but even that is stopping.
Please PM me if you want to talk.

Watch Ellen Fisher on youtube and how she overcame her eating disorder with a vegan diet

See your GP, the sooner the better as the longer and eating order goes on the harder it is to treat. With help, there is a good chance you could turn this around. Trust me when I say that you don't want this to get more of a grip of you than it already has.

I could have typed your last paragraph myself. It's good you recognise you need to stop purging OP.

I don't want to scare you but if it helps you quit like it did me then that's worth being a bit scared now - you can literally drop dead from purging. You lose I believe potassium (and other important minerals etc) each time you purge and if you lose too much, your heart will just give in. I read that (or at least very similar, if any derails are wrong) years ago, (and actually came across a photo of a deceased victim of purging which I have never been able to erase from my mind), and it put the fright enough in me to finally stop soon after. I'm sorry if it scares you or is uncomfortable but please OP you need to get help.

Please go to your GP, this can so quickly take over your whole life if it gets a grip on you and you deserve to be happy, not live in the constant binge/purge cycle this ends up being.

Your GP will be more helpful than you think, they can refer you to specialist services.

Sending you lots of love and well done for recognising you want to do something about this

In addition to seeking professional help from your GP you may find it helpful to attend an Overeaters Anonymous meeting, you will find support from people suffering and recovering from all types of disordered eating.

Thanks so much for all your comments so far. I will definitely go to the GP. I'm so ashamed and embarrassed about this. I feel so disgusting :(

You're not disgusting OP you are incredibly strong to decide to take the first step in getting better and you should be proud of yourself for that