I’ve only had one longish relationship that lasted 5 years. There’s been a few people I’ve been with a few months before it’s ended otherwise I’ve always been single.
I don’t think I feel happy being in a relationship, I feel like I’m not good enough to make someone else happy. I spend a lot of time in relationships worrying they’d be happier with someone else, I end up falling for them too quickly and then getting hurt when it ends. It takes me months to get over even short relationships.
I see people on here who have problems and others telling them to leave and be with someone else like it’s all easy. I see who leave marriages decades long and feel better/ are able to be someone else in less time than it takes me to get over a 3 month ‘relationship’.
When they end I feel upset for months, cry for months and feel worthless. I feel like I’m better staying alone because it’s not worth it when I don’t enjoy being with someone because of the worry and then to end up feeling so hurt.
But I don’t want to be alone forever. Has anyone felt like this and managed to feel better? I guess more secure/confident in myself? Or anyone decided a relationship isn’t for them and are happy with that decision? I’m not into casual sex either, never had a ONS so that’s not an option for me either.