I’m a married mother of two and this is a total cliche and won’t go anywhere even if I wanted it to (I’m not attractive in any way) but I have a major, major crush on a senior manager in my company. He isn’t my direct manager - thank god - but is part of our department.
I had a one on one meeting with him a few days ago and I couldn’t stop thinking about him for days after. He's a good 10 years older than me but has such an attractive face, gorgeous features, he is charismatic & funny & doesn’t take himself too seriously. He makes me want to lose weight, wear nice clothes, do my hair (to be fair I should do this anyway, but my motivations are skewed!). Like I said there is absolutely 0 chance of him crushing on me & I would never cheat, neither would he I assume, so I feel guilty for feeling this way! It’s total schoolgirl infatuation like fancying your teacher!
How do I get over this crush?? Or should I just allow myself to think about him? I don’t go out of my way to talk to him or anything like that, in fact I try to distance myself more! Our conversations are always for work, although we do have normal chats about other things, nothing flirty or underhand.
I haven’t felt this way in years so help me?! 