To ask your advice on being so frustrated and angry by divorce I can't sleep

[soangrycantsleep]

I'm hoping someone can give me some kind of advice. (Regular poster but NC'd for this as it's so personal).

My divorce has been dragging on for over 2 years, during which I've had to deal with horrible behaviour, ridiculous allegations and stalking (police got involved), my (hopefully)STBXH is demanding money from me for the hell of it (which I couldn't possibly afford to pay - he was a cocklodger who lived off me) and to top it all off, I've got to live with a physically painful chronic health problem because of him.

Every night when I try to go to sleep I feel so angry about it all that I cannot switch off and cannot sleep. I lie awake for hours, exhausted and fuming and in pain because of the medical issue. I feel as though I can't get away from it all - he's taken on regular work in my area (it's a long way out of his way) so that he has a plausible sounding excuse to be nearby and I saw him on my street again yesterday. I can't even sell my house and move somewhere he can't find me because he's put a home rights notice on at the land registry, which stops me being able to do anything with the property. I did have a lawyer until a while ago, but I couldn't afford to keep paying them.

I've been talking to a counsellor for two years about it and also been prescribed anti depressants and anti anxiety medication by a psychiatrist who diagnosed me with PTSD, but I just can't stop feeling so angry and am exhausted from not being able to switch off and fall asleep at night.

I know that I need to let go of the anger somehow, but I'm struggling to and I just can't find a way to switch off at night. I'm sure I'd feel a lot better if I was able to sleep. I have tried sleeping pills but they don't work on me any more.

I would be so grateful if anyone can give me their suggestions or ideas of how to clear their mind and feel calm, when they're really troubled by things, to be able to fall asleep.

Thank you for reading.

Have you tried a gravity (weighted) blanket?

You have been controlled by this man while with him, and he continues to try to do so now you're apart. Take the control back. Push thoughts of him away when its quiet, realise how much better your life is now he's gone. Pity him when he pulls one of his stunts. Rise above any of his methods to keep you anxious and unsure. Your life is better now you've split. Remind yourself over and over of this when you relive the trauma you have suffered because of him. You got this!!!
Re the house, maybe if you contact the land registry and tell them your side of the story, they may be able to offer free advice or suggestions as to your options going forward. Women's Aid may have free legal advice too as these methods of control are all too common when couples split.
I suggest you go to your local police station and tell them about him hanging around your house. They probably wont follow it up, but if your Ex ups his game by trying anything else, it's on record that you have voiced concerns about his behaviour. This is the most dangerous time for you, but the reigns are in your hands. Take them, pity how pathetic he is and make a life free of him, in as much as you can....You got this!!!