Any hope?

[Theendofmyrope]

Anyone else finding living a fucking struggle. Does it get any easier? Has anyone recovered? So much around mental health but I am still too scared and ashamed to tell my employers that I am suffering from severe depression. I'm exhausted and losing hope.

Life’s really hard at the moment. I have lots of illnesses and I have been turned down for pip, my autistic son is being moved away at over 2 hours travelling distance, I’m struggling to get any sort of career off the ground, my husband’s lazy and I’m totally exhausted after taking my medication so I can get up at 6.45am. I love my children dearly and I have a lot of affection for my husband but sometimes every day feels such an effort! I want to enjoy things but we’re always struggling financially. We just manage from one pay day to the next and we’re just keeping afloat.

We can’t even go for a day out because the car isn’t big enough, things seem so depressing at times.

However, there is hope. If we can cope like this when the situation is tough, if and when life improves and our income increases, we will have learned enough about thriftiness and self reliance to save and have holidays and improve our quality of life.

Bleak as it seems, there is always hope.

Just reread your post. Depression is a very serious illness that needs lifestyle adjustments and support from your employer. Please don’t feel ashamed to ask for that.

I'm so sorry to hear that you're having such a bad time. Please don't feel that you can't talk to your employers- they have legal obligations when it comes to this. Have you been to see your GP? Have you reached out for help? Talk to someone if you can. The Samaritans can be good for this. Sending a virtual hand hold

Im worried my employers will secretly think of me that I am a failure, liability, or just plain crap and treat me differently

I think it’s a risk you need to take. You’re obviously I’ll and need support. If they think less of you then it says more about them and I’m sure you can’t be dismissed for illness

Hope you have a better day today.

@Mitzicoco thank you for thinking of me

I took the risk. I sought treatment. My life is so much better for having done that. I refuse to be ashamed of having had MH struggles. I’m not ashamed of my asthma. Why should I be of the depression and anxiety I’ve suffered? It doesn’t make me weak or crap or a liability. But facing up to it has made me stronger and healthier.
Good luck OP. You deserve to be well.