I’m feeling hugely overwhelmed and a massive failure with regards to adulting. We moved into a much larger house a few months back. I’ve been a sahm for the last ten years (aside from a year working from home part time). The reason I’m at home is we have three kids and two have Sen. One is especially severe. Youngest child after a year illegally excluded from school and a court case I’m now home alone all day. I don’t tend to leave the house outside of the school run for my two kids (one has asd) at the local school. Everything just feels so overwhelming. We have so much stuff and I don’t know where to start with cleaning. I feel like an out and out loser. My husband comes home for lunch and I’m sure he wonders what I do all day. But I feel like I’m pushing a huge rock up a mountain. I’m so ashamed and embarrassed. I don’t have any hobbies outside of reading as social interaction feels so hard. I just feel so utterly, utterly broken.