I'll try to keep this short but there's a bit of a backstory.
Me and my dh were brought up in a large town. We both had good childhoods growing up there as far as the town itself is concerned. When I became pregnant with our first 9 years ago we needed a council house and had to move to a village 20 minutes away from said town. It's a nice village and we actually felt quite privileged to be able to live there. We've since brought the house, made it lovely and had our second child.
It's been a great family home, I've liked living here but we haven't got a life really here ( as in friends , work etc ) I work from home but a lot of my work still comes from my home town and my husband works in the town.
We've outgrown our home as much as we love it, and so we've started to look for another. This has coincided with me starting to get really bad anxiety ( a lot of it is to do with my son as he has special needs and medical conditions and things have been really hard )
I've started to feel really isolated here. I cannot just nip to a friends, I feel very much confined at home and as we do not have anyone too close by childcare is hard and say I need to rush off to the hospital trying to sort my youngest and my son is always a bit of a mare.
I've thought about moving back to the town. Life would be a lot easier and we can afford nicer bigger houses there than the village.
Dh isn't keen, thinks we'll regret it, he hates the thought of living back in a town, and I'm also going to miss having lovely walks, and just the feel of a village.
I'm also worried we might regret it but also hate how I'm feeling here, and would love to have everyone on our doorstep.
Dh will move .. but I don't know if I'm BU moving us all there ?