I'm 25 and currently in the middle of my 9th recurrent miscarriage.
I just can't shake this feeling of there being no point to my life at the moment. I feel awful because I have a lovely partner, two great step kids, a loving family and a nice home but I just feel so empty.
I hate my job at the moment and the thought of having to do it until I retire fills me with dread and makes me cry. I feel so trapped, I've quite a good career for someone of my age so I wouldn't get anywhere near the same amount of money doing something else. I don't feel we can really afford to lose my wage so I'm stuck.
I just can't see any positives at the moment and I feel so guilty because I know they are there but I just don't feel satisfied with them. I keep having panic attacks that my life is just 'this' now forever.
I'm already on anti depressants and have been to counselling.
I don't know what to do anymore. It's getting to the point where I don't really want to live if this is 'it'. I'm not suicidal but I just think seriously what is the point of me. I just feel useless.
I'm ranting sorry but I don't really talk to anyone IRL because it's too hard.