My husband and I want to try for a baby in a year or so. Our reasons for holding off (we are emotionally very ready!) are that we need to save quite a lot of money and sort the house a bit.
Anyway, I’ve just taken a pregnancy test because my period is a few days late, and it’s usually totally regular. I was hoping it would come back as negative, for many reasons - we don’t have enough money saved, I haven’t been taking folic acid, I’ve drunk alcohol on a few nights in the last month, etc etc etc.
The test did come back negative - and I’ve felt nothing but devastated. I immediately cried, and my poor bewildered husband is comforting me but I just can’t stop thinking about how happy and exciting we would be right now if it had been positive.
Why am I being such a weirdo? I wasn’t trying to get pregnant and I wanted the test to be negative. So why am I now so unhappy that it was? I feel so low and sad and I have no right to at all.