to let my anxiety get to me like this?

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Tomorrow I'm going to a party. There's a guy there I know and is close to the host who deleted me off all social media. Fine but I feel awkward about it as he kept the rest of my family on there. I'm a single mum to a 9 month old and worried about judgement from people. I feel really unattractive and am uncomfortable in my skin after having a baby. I'm stressing about breastfeeding as I don't know where I will do it. It feels awkward in front of make family members. I know, ridiculous. I really want to go and need to attend these events as I will end up becoming a hermit, but my anxiety just keeps getting the best of me. Help! I need sleep and I'm just up worrying as usual.

Not an expert and don't have anxiety issues but I understand your concerns.

Whenever I am uncomfortable about going anywhere, I usually ask myself, what is the worst thing that can happen if I went. Usually it's nothing! I think the best thing you can do is to go. Sometimes we overthink things (like the breastfeeding for example) that other people wouldn't be bothered by or even think twice about. Everyone knows that a baby must be fed, I am sure there will be a quite room where you can excuse yourself and feed your baby. Ignore and avoid anyone you think will trigger negatives thoughts. If not possible just smile and realise that you went and by doing so have achieved something you were scared of doing.

Erm meant quiet room. Also your baby is 9 months!! It's normal to still feel uncomfortable with your body! Ignore the guy too. Don't even mention that he deleted you bla bla! Zero engagement aside from a polite hello if need be.