Feeling alone

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Hi guys, aibu,
I have 3 lovely babies. My middle child who is 5 has Autism, non verbal and learning difficulties. He Attends a special school. I am his registered carer. I have family who live across the Rd from me and are very reluctant in helping or giving me a break. (an hr would b nice) . So many times they go out and exclude me. It would be nice if they would suggest to babysit so I can go out with them. I'm the eldest in my family and I did all I could to help my mum, I thought such initiative came naturally, obviously I'm wrong. It would be nice to have some support. I know it's their right to choose, but it would be nice to feel human sometimes instead of a machine running on empty. I just need a rant

Hi OP. I'm sorry to hear you're feeling so down. I know a little how you feel. I have no help from family and I find it hurtful. I only have one daughter and she has no additional needs so it must be even harder for you. Have you spoken to your family? Do they know you feel like this?

@thenaughtyone thanks for ur reply.
Hi, yes I'm constantly asking (begging) for help and telling them about how I feel. It seems to fall on deaf ears. I feel as though I was made to be ignored. When uv done something wrong u can understand ppl's attitude towards u, but when there's no issue.... I'm stuck!
My little boy who is almost 2 (bless him), when he was a 8-10 wks old, he got sepsis and viral meningitis. I was in hospital on 2 separate occasions for 3 days each. (6 days in total). How many visitors... 0. How many calls... 0. How many offers of a break or food delivery... 0.
The fact that they're my family is what keeps me with them. Gun to my head, I want to move away and forget them.
We're currently in the process of getting additional help (care worker). Someone who can take my 5yro to activities that he loves. I'm grateful for the social support but it's gut wrenching when family don't give a hoot.

I just want to say how moved I am by your message. You sound amazing and strong and so committed to your special children. Your family should hang their heads in shame. It’s hard to comprehend how they could watch you manage all of this and not help in anyway. I am so sorry for you.
Is there any way you could envisage being own with them about this and asking for their help? If they don’t respond well then forget and move on.
Hopefully you will get some decent support from a care worker.
Where abouts are you? Any local organisations, charities, churches who might offer support?

@worsethingshappen
Thanks for ur msg.
There are local activities and charities, but a lot of the time I can't manage alone. My husband works long hrs and I can't bear the idea of struggling and regretting going.
I guess I'm just angry n struggling to get over it n move on. I feel betrayed n let down... I have a friend who I occasionally talk to. She's a busy mum too. She can't get her head round y my mum is so ignorant.

Anyway, I guess life must go on... I can't afford to be sad around the kids.